Monday, May 26, 2008

not entirely gone from blogville

In a comment to a recent post Molly of Red Molly's Picayune Democrat blog asked about my well being. I knew it had been a while since I'd posted, but I looked today to see that it's been a bit over two weeks since my last post, and it was a sort of weekend update.

I will say up front that I can't be in too bad a shape. I manage to wake up everyday, go to work, feed the kids. I do what I have to do, but I can't say that I'm in especially great shape either. Too many things just seem pointless too many days of too many weeks.

Throughout my life I've run up against any number of questions. I'm good at questions, but all too often I just can't figure out answers that seem to make any sense. Maybe one day soon I'll post a list of all the stupid questions that keep me flummoxed.

I'm just generally in a place where I feel very depressed and very discouraged, and that makes it difficult to want to post. I don't want to end up posting the same whiny drivel over and over. I don't want to keep wallowing in my bad feelings. I do want to find my way out of ending up here again.

And that's where I am. I keep wanting to post more, but life doesn't make it easy. I'm not going anywhere anytime soon as far as blogging goes, but there will sometimes be dead air when you tune in.

1 comment:

Michele said...

Depression sucks. It colors how you view the world and the people in it and yourself. It's a terrible place to be, and only when you come out on the other side of it do you realize how oppressive all of that emotional emptiness was. I was there once, for no good reason. I think it was chemical, but it lasted at least 18 months, and I dropped out of college due to it.

If you don't feel like sitting on a shrink's couch (which really is not out of the question), then get some sun, some exercise like walking, set little achievable goals, surround yourself with positive friends, eat as clean as you can, and drink a lot less. These things really help.

My 2 cents.