There is the whole thing about liking guys, and there are so many guys that I kind of find myself being friends with. Then there are the ones when I have . . . something I can't describe.
There are the not gay guys that I meet and have a moment with, those guys that I think, if only they were gay.
I can think of two right now.
It can be hard to deal with them, knowing how much I like them, and knowing I have no chance with. I want to be able to be friends with them, but it's hard to not think about the reality that they are guys that, if they were gay, I might could have a relationship with them.
But they are not gay, and I have no chance at this thing I think could be.
Sometimes it really hard to deal with, trying to force myself to just be friends and not have feelings. But when can we control our feelings?
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Sam. I know all too well about having to just be friends when that person can never feel the way about you that you do about them. I've learned control over my feelings I never even knew was possible, because I just had to.
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