Part of what I need to do with myself is to find those things that I've forgotten about. I've let the tumult of the last few years get the better of me, and I feel I've let too many things go away. Essentially I need to look at habits and ways I accomplish or fail to accomplish things. I have less good habits that need adjustment, and I've stopped a lot of things that are just good for me.
There are of course other things like the bike. I am truly in love with that machine, though right now I still need to look at his rear derailleur so that we can get those two gears back, and his chain needs to be looked at. Having been in a bit of rain lately we might need to look into some oil, and a general wipe down would be nice.
In speaking of those old habit that were good I have to get to my real story. I finally paid the library off and found the two "lost" books. When I've read books lately they've been rereads, and while I have no problem with reading a book again, there's nothing quite like reading a book you've never read before, and to make it even better add a new author to that list as well.
Or add an old friend like J.R.R. Tolkien when you discover his The Book of Lost Tales. I'm only a couple of pages into his son's foreword in which he's spoken about The Silmarillion more than not and has even discussed other people's discussion of it. I'm not sure why I bother with forewords sometimes, and sometimes while reading I won't get why I bother. Either way I'm a fan of Tolkien, and better yet I'm sure Big Brother will be happy to get his hands on it also.
He's certainly happy to have the library back. He's rereread so many books lately. The Boy has yet to finish a chapter book on his own, but I know the day is coming. I feel like I hate that he doesn't love reading as much as his brother and I do, but I also get that his interest just doesn't right now and may never. Or maybe he just needs to find the right book.
He happened upon Shiloh which is about a boy and a dog if the cover has any truth to it. I feel like it might be one of those books I should have read by now, and I do plan to read it before it's due back. The Boy picked it up because his teacher is reading it to the class, and he happened to see it. He likes his teacher and loves dogs, so perhaps this culmination of influence will be that catalyst. or not.
I've already finished The Wanderer by Sharon Creech. Sophie is a young girl about to sail across the ocean with three uncles and two male cousins to visit their grandfather. It's a story about a girl getting to make her own decisions though not without having to put up a fight. It's about the family and about the idea of family as Sophie's story comes out. It's about the power in the act of fixing up the boat and setting sail to test people especially as this family is thrown together to actually perform this feat.
The Wanderer is also about the sea. Sophie is drawn to the sea in a way I can almost feel I understand. I've never spent that much time near the sea, and I've never been in it on a boat. All my sea experience involves freshwater. But seafaring adventures tend to make some of the best books in my opinion, and this one has become a favorite. It is a kid's book, ages whenever they can read on up to well past my few years. There's nothing questionable or violent or sexy in this book, and I may be wrong, but I kinda feel like Cody might be gay.
And speaking of Cody, he's the second narrator. Most of the book is Sophie's journal about the voyage. Throughout the book though we also get to read Cody's "dog-log." I enjoyed having the second point of view as well as a bit more of the family background. Even with Cody's dog-log the story is still Sophie's.
I hope Big Brother reads it. I'll definitely suggest it to him, and if I put off our next library visit just long enough he'll have read all his own and may be willing to give it a try. He picked four books total. He was already reading The Wizard of Oz, not a library book, as that's the book he was reading most recently at my house and is the one still on the dining table. He's also reading whichever Artemis Fowl book he's up to, and I had to go look next to his bed to remember that. Along with that Artemis Fowl he grabbed The 39 Clues, How to Cheat a Dragon's Curse, and The Land of the Silver Apples.
I won't bore you with all his books, but The Land of the Silver Apples is a sequel to a book that we actually own, Sea of Trolls, written by Nancy Farmer, and as I google I see that both books are part of a trilogy. Big Brother and I both enjoyed Sea of Trolls, so it looks like I have yet another option of reading material for the next three weeks.
I'm so happy to have paid off the library. I love going there. I love the librarians. I don't know about the people on the computers, though they do make me appreciate having one. This is not only one of the best things I've done for myself in a while, but it's also one of those habits that was always a good one. It's honestly been at least a year since we've been regular library users, and I'd say it may have been a good bit longer. I'm not delving into the story right now, but the main point is that I sucked in my pride and blew out whatever shame I'd built up in letting the situation get out of hand. The librarians, though shocked, were not mean when I humbly approached to find out exactly what I needed to do as the computer told them the full weight of my transgressions.
And just now, rereading and editing, that last paragraph has me forming a plan. Working my Saturday split shift I usually get about an hour break in the middle. I can ride to the downtown library for music and set whatever mood I want for the ensuing Saturday night shift. This is gonna be fun.